I can honestly say, of all the photos and body parts examined during The Body Image Project, this post makes me the most nervous.
I don’t want to write it.
I REALLY don’t want to take the picture.
I’m not sure when it happened, but at some point in the past 15 years my face changed shape.
It is now completely, 100% NOT symmetrical.
As a perfectionist, THIS DRIVES ME INSANE.
As a woman, this makes me feel absolutely unattractive.
As a used-to-be-victim of serious, severe acne, this reinforces the conviction “don’t ever let anyone see your face ever again, HIDE THAT SHIT.”
I wish I could express to you the level of anxiety I feel when I look at that picture. We’ve worked through skin and lips in The Body Image Project, so I’m (kind of, more every day) okay with those aspects of my face, but still.
I don’t just feel anxious, I feel FEAR.
Legitimate, deep-seated, borderline panic.Read More